Holes.

Lately i have been thinking about the holes in my heart that i have felt over the year. I think everyone feels like they have them, like something is missing. Today i learned what to fill these holes with. God has laid on my heart somethings that i need to improve, and my improvement has led to the filling of these holes. I am trying to get into better shape, trying to be more involved, trying to do better in school and go to class, trying to be a better friend, trying to truly love everyone, and trying to improve my relationship with God. This last week i have been completely changed. I now feel a joy that i have never felt before in my life and it is because i am taking in more of an appreciation for what God has given to me. Jesus Christ saved me and my prize is a place in Heaven and i am so grateful. I was thinking about how a girl used to be the filler to all of these holes. I might have been happy, but was God happy? Did my relationship glorify God? Probably not. But this is something that i want so badly. I want someone that i can pour the Love of God into. I am not saying that if i had a girl in my life that all of my holes would be filled up, but that i need to have all of the holes filled before my heart is ready for a relationship. I feel like this is finally something that i can be truly ready for. I can say that there is someone that i am interested in. I feel a lot more comfortable putting that here then on facebook because the few that actually might read this probably already know. well. a few of them do. Now i am just waiting and praying for the direction and future God places me in.