Here I am.

Here I am. Guilty as charged. Top secret ninja emotion mission failed. My life is indeed quite average. Now where do I go? I do not have the answer to that question nor will I pursue its answer until it presents itself to me. Is a future possible? Don't know that either. Guess I don't really have to and maybe there is a reason I don't know that. Right when I thought life couldn't get more awkward it does and right when I thought I wouldn't have more questions I do. Oh do I have a list for you! I realize now that I talk to myself. Especially while I am blogging. Not shocked, as I always have done this. Insane you ask? Quite. Actually beyond your comprehension. Here I am. I followed my heart and I pray that it isn't a dead end. Then again, that is not my decision. I do not know which path is mine to take.

Here I am: Busted! You're a smart girl, why did I think you would never figure it out? Maybe it was when I had once told you that I would never be interested in you. I wasn't planning on you changing into everything I ever wanted. Next time God needs to send me a script so I can plan ahead a little better! =P Hope I didn't catch you too off guard. I had tried to run situations through my head but it wasn't until I (this is so cliche) listened to my heart. Now I have spent the whole day away from you and perhaps it has been for the better. I guess I am quite happy that you have said that our friendship will never be awkward. That is a big *sigh* of relief.

Here I am. Potentially stabbing a close friend in the back. You tell me I am not, but you don't even know how he feels. I feel as if I have done this. I am interested in how 'this' all would ever turn out.

She will be loved. Promise.