can't we get along and praise nicely?

Sooo many things on my mind. Where do I start?

Ahhh the great stage of moving on. Knowing that your liking someone is only a drag, that you just make everything awkward. Great feeling. My emotions are like trying to disarm a bomb. Except for instead of cutting the green wire I got desperate and cut them all. Now I am blowing up inside. That is how my feelings are for you now. Because I am cutting it all off it is just building inside me and is tearing me apart. I don’t know what to do or where to go.

I hate summer. For some odd reason I start going on a “summer break” from Jesus and it sucks. I am hurting and missing having my Savior in my life.

Over the years I have noticed how some people talk about different churches and denominations. Some people don’t even sound Christian when it comes to the topic because some are very unaccepting. It seems like everyone I talk to has a denomination that is “on the bottom of their list” or so to speak. I feel like I can’t even talk church with some Christians. Annoys the heck out of me. Can’t we all get along and praise nicely?

Is God sending me a sign? He closes a window to see my friends from wayne today at hope’s grad party and He is shutting the door on going back to wayne at all. I don’t know what to do but if this is the case it is going to kill me. Where do You want me?

I hate it when things go better than you want. When you restart a friendship only to be on good terms and they want to be your best friend. It doesn’t work like that.

I have noticed that I am typically one that has a hard time with saying no to things, but sometimes I feel like I say no a lot to hanging out with friends. I don’t know why it is that things never go like I want. When I want to be alone everyone asks me to hang out. When I want to do something everyone else is doing something and they don’t invite me. Maybe sometimes I am asking for my own loneliness.

I also have came to a conclusion that my list of best friends is much different from my list of favorite friends. The people that I would much rather hang out with. There are some people that are incredibly close to me yet I never have desire to hang out with them. Interesting how it works that way…

Well those are my thoughts. If you have some of your own about them, feel free to contact me.